This is where I go out on a limb and ponder a while.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

A Big Birthday

So today is my birthday.  I wasn't sure how I would feel about turning 50, but I'm really ok with it.  I have often heard people say that they still feel inside like they're only 20 years old when they're really 60, 70, or 80, and I can believe it.  I still feel 20 years old on the inside, but I get a little creeped out when I look in the mirror, especially considering I have an 11-year-old daughter.  I still have the desires and passion, and for goodness sake, when will my mind ever stop buzzing?  For as far back as I can remember, my brain has had a need to consume every written word within sight.  And I don't seem to be able to stay with one subject - everything interests me, so I'm involved in a different subject every week.  Thank goodness for Kindle, because now instead of piles of books on every horizontal surface, I have 'collections' of books stashed in my Kindle, all of them in various stages of completion.

I have noticed that within the past few years I have lost some amount of physical energy, but have gained a large amount of mental energy, and now have a fierce passion for some of the subjects that I am involved in.  My husband and I had hoped to move to the ranch sometime within this next year and live our dream of raising grass-fed beef.   But it's not going to happen after all, unfortunately.  However, I can't totally give up on this whole organic living dream.  So I'm focusing on learning as much as I can about the political aspects of it, and maybe I can make a difference somehow.  One thing I know is how to write, so maybe I'll be one of those pain-in-the-neck letter-writers that are a thorn in the side of the policy makers.  All I know is I want to do something to make a difference.  So now you know why I haven't posted here in almost a month.  I've been reading volumes of STUFF about GMO's and changing the labeling on our foods, and antibiotics in animal feed, etc.  There's a lot out there.  And it all started with one video I saw about a year ago.

Watch it.  Your life will never be the same.

This is what I REALLY want for my birthday.
But it's not gonna happen.  

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Introvert Update

More thoughts on the birthday party:  First off, German Chocolate Cake.  Oh my, it's the one thing I never indulge in, and it's soooo good!  So I'll be having a big slice of that! I think I'll ask M. to double the frosting on the cake, just for good measure.

Second strategy:  Remember the saying, "How do you eat an elephant?  One bite at a time"?  That's how you deal with a room full of people - one person at a time.  I may not deal well with a crowd, but I happen to be pretty skillful one-on-one because I'm a good listener.  So I'm looking forward to playing catch-up with some people I haven't seen in a while.

This morning I saw a story about hot-air balloon rides on the news and I told my husband that we should do that and he said "No".  When I asked him why not, he said it's too unpredictable because you don't have enough control over where you go and where you land.  Imagine that - it's usually me that's so overly cautious.

I've been invited to go to Las Vegas for a weekend with some gals to celebrate a divorce.  I know it's someone's way of letting go of the old and making room for the new.  But somehow, for me, it just doesn't feel right to celebrate, and even if I could afford it, which I can't right now, I don't think I could go.  Haven't figured that one out yet.

Still warm, wet, sloppy winter - I DON'T MIND!!! :)
Have a great day!